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Life, the universe and everything.

I’m sat here on my own (night 2 of 3 on my own!) listening to Alan Watts – A Conversation With Myself which was recommended to me today after having quite an interesting dialogue with a colleague and his friends. I’m starting to have these amazing conversations about the world, society, religion, philosophy, etc and I’m really enjoying being able to state my views and have others agree with me.

It’s been so long since I’ve been around people who want to talk about this stuff and that have similar views to me, so I don’t feel like such an outsider because I don’t agree with society as it currently stands or religions on a whole. It’s just so nice to find people who think the same things as me for once!

Completely unrelated musical sidenote: this is not a bad listen!

It’s been an … interesting week.

It started off with drama at the beginning of the week. I spiraled a bit after that and it led to my doing a lot of eating and no exercise. Consequently I have not even looked at the scale and am pretty sure all my previous hard work has gone down the toilet! So tomorrow it’s back to good food and lots of exercise as usual.

Tomorrow also marks 4 weeks until my 5k Race For Life for Cancer Research UK in Isle of Wight. I running in memory of my Grandparents on my Dad’s side, they both suffered from lung cancer. I’d much appreciate any sponsorships!!

This week also marked the launch of the iPhone 4. I was entirely prepared to get one. Until Hubby brought his home. It looks so naff! I hate the lack of curves, that was what made the iPhone so sexy. I have been going back and forth since Thursday and completely undecided about what to do. This morning I managed to narrow it down to either just upgrading to an iPhone 3GS or getting either an HTC Desire, Samsung Wave or Sony Ericsson Xperia X10. After speaking to O2 today I narrowed it down to the 3GS or the X10 and have now decided to go for the X10. So tomorrow will be heading to the shop for that.

It’s been so hot here the past few weeks and this weekend it’s gotten a little bit unbearable, especially when the house doesn’t have AC. I’m thankful it’s not humid, though. I certainly do NOT miss that from Virginia!

I have to focus on being healthy now.

  • 2 weeks until a night out in Swindon, Eclipse and then a night with guests at home.
  • 3 weeks until London Film & Comic Con.
  • 4 weeks until my 5K Race For Life.
  • 7 weeks until our wedding anniversary.
  • 8 weeks until V Festival!
  • 10 weeks until we go on holiday (hopefully).

It’s a crazy busy summer.

I Could Belong To The Night


The Pretty Reckless

The Pretty Reckless

Ever have a mood where you need music – meaningful and very loud and you just can’t get enough?

That’s me right now.

I’m currently listening to The Pretty Reckless EP on billboard.com before it comes out Tuesday. They are my current obsession. I think they are amazing and Taylor Momsen is awesome. It’s loud, hard punk/rock and something I can really get into. Especially in my current mood!

Seeing as it’s nearly midnight and Sunday I should really be in bed right now but I just wanna stay up all night listening to music. I miss being able to do that. I have to say being a working, responsible adult sucks a lot of the time.

On A Roll

It feels like I haven’t posted in ages… Probably because last week had a lot going on.

I spent last weekend recovering from the girly night with friends, which was the best night I’ve had in a long time! You know it’s a good night when a boy ends up dressed up like a girl.

I managed to get to the gym 3 times (including early yesterday morning) and run twice, plus got a boxing session in.

I was social after work.

I booked tickets to see Band of Skulls in October!

I finally weighed myself and discovered I’ve lost almost 3 lbs in almost 3 weeks.

I managed to stay mostly within 1400 calories/day this week, without even paying attention.

I am feeling more confident about myself than I have in a very long time and it’s showing.

Oh and found out that Ben Browder is at London Film and Comic Con next month and SQUEEEEEEEEEEE! <3 him!

Overall, it was a really good week. I am hoping for a repeat this week. Looking forward to next weekend already when we have a visitor, one of Hubby’s friends from work who I’m very much looking forward to meeting!!

I’m feeling motivated and energetic and quite pleased with myself. I ache from working out, but it’s the good ache, when you know you are doing good things. I’ve noticed a huge difference already in my waist and legs and arms so here’s hoping I have great results on the 25th when I weigh after a month at the gym!

Another You (or rather, Another Me)

I have had the best weekend in a very long time and it’s only Saturday. I arrived home today around 6pm after my adventures away last night and Hubby kept commenting on how social I’ve become and how I’d never have done these things 5 or 10 years ago. I corrected him and said not 2 years ago or even last year.

I try to think back on my life and what has held me back from living and I know that my depression played a massive role. Low self esteem and complete and utter lack of confidence have been huge hinderances.

In the 10 years that I’ve known Hubby I’ve very slowly changed into the person I am today. He’s had a lot to do with it, but so have I. I’m not willing to let fear leave me paralyzed so I’m a spectator in my own life any longer. So many things have changed for me, especially in the last 2 years, that I can’t even list them all. I do know that I like everything that’s changed because I have never felt more like me than I do now.

Hubby has been trying to get me to love myself for 10 years now. I think now I can finally say I’m starting to.

<3

Oh, but Hubby? I’m still not hugging myself! :)

John Mayer, Arcade Games and Lots of Walking

That was my week in a nutshell. Back in Feb we booked the week off to see John Mayer in London and then visit Brighton. It was perfect timing and a very much needed break and I’m glad we still have tomorrow off to recover!

We saw John Mayer at Wembley Arena on Wednesday. He was AH-MAZ-ING. The first time I ever realised who he was it was really late one night and I was flipping channels on telly. This was probably 6-7 years ago now? Anyway, there he was on Austin City Limits and his guitar playing mesmerised me. Then he played Why Georgia and I recognised it from the radio and that was the start of my John Mayer love affair.

I have to say, his music got me through so many bad times over the next few years. Music is therapy for me and John Mayer is definitely one of my preferred therapists. I love all his stuff, but the first few listens of his newest album, Battle Studies, didn’t win me over. Now, the more I listen to it the more I love it. I’m so glad I finally got to see him live and if it wasn’t for the very tall person a few rows in front of us it’d have been perfect. Tall people should not be allowed to stand in front of shorter people.

Brighton was good. We stayed at the Royal Albion and I’ll never stay there again if given a choice. But it was right next to the pier and we spent a fair few hours playing arcade games and acquiring lots of tickets. In the end we ended up with 666 tickets and got ourselves a poker set.

We did a heck of a lot of walking and going up and down 4 flights of stairs in the hotel (the lift was too slow) so I’m suitably exhausted but not so much that I’m in pain. My legs ache a little bit but it’s an ache that reminds me they’ve been used a lot and is a good feeling.

We had a yummy dinner at a pub, The Devil’s Dyke, with a friend and his girlfriend. The views from that pub are astonishing and I nearly fell over in the car park (after only 1 and a half ciders!).

The journey back from Brighton via London today was harrowing (for me anyway) and I’m so glad to be home. I’m now all caught up on Dr Who (I am in love with Matt Smith) and I watched Up In The Air which was very good and I can see why it got such rave reviews. It’s such an amazing film and I thought George Clooney was very endearing and he reminded me a bit of my dad in it.

Whilst in Brighton I decided that restaurants are horrible, especially with their love of adding chips/fries/whatever you want to call them to any meal on the menu. So my goal for June is to cut out chips. And crisps. We’ll go ahead and say that’s my monthly challenge for June. I managed to go all day Saturday without eating any, substituting them for baked potato or mashed potato when we ate out.

I don’t think this goal will be too hard. It certainly won’t be for the first few weeks. I’m so sick of eating out and having crap food for now that all I crave are fresh salads and veggies. I start at Curves on Tuesday after work, too, and back to my 5k training tomorrow!

Here’s to a healthy June!

Enjoyment

I am really enjoying my week off. I haven’t thought about work once yet and I’m not stressed out. I’m enjoying the beautiful weather, BBQs, time with Hubby and freedom and it’s only Tuesday.

Yesterday I drove down to the coast and spent the afternoon with my lovely friend. We had lunch and saw Prince of Persia and drooled over Jake Gyllenhaal. He’s so gorgeous (sorry Hubby!).

Today I had my appointment at Curves. We went through the fitness assessment, where my beginning weight is officially 218lbs. The girl was really nice and she took me around a few of the machines so I could get a feel for how they work and what the pace is. I think it will be kinda tough to start with, but I’m sure I’ll manage to kick butt in no time. If I’ve learned anything over the last 5 years it’s that I’m a very strong person and can do anything I put my mind to. My first workout will be Tuesday night after work. I’m really excited about it.

Tomorrow we’re off to London and then Brighton on Thursday. I’m looking forward to seeing Brighton and relaxing.