Category: Depression
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When you wake up from depression you need to give yourself grace
I’m rubbish at sticking to goals that aren’t massively important. Do I want to write more? Yep. Do I actually write more? Nope. Part of not writing recently has been from what a dumpster fire the last few months have been, personally (and well, globally too amiright?). It’s only when my mental health finally got…
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It’s that time of year again
This year is so strange. I feel stuck in May, back when it was hot and sunny. I certainly felt better then. I feel like I’ve blinked and suddenly it’s September. This is usually the start of my favourite time of year. The cooler weather, the leaves and sky changing colour and all that. But…
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Chica’s Log: Supplemental
The other day I posted a photo on Instagram of all the tablets I take and I wanted to take some time and write about them because I’ve found some of them damn near miraculous in how much they have helped me. View this post on Instagram A post shared by Tish Smith (@mrstcsmith) on…
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One of the bad weeks (plus a cancer update!)
I’ve just realised I have a draft from a couple months ago that I still haven’t finished or posted which I obviously forgot about! Oh well. You get this one instead. This week has been utter shite. 90% of that is down to hormones because ovaries suck – I still have my cycles I just…
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The light at the end of the tunnel
It hasn’t been a great year so far and truth be told I haven’t really been myself since August. There’s been way too much stress and feeling hopeless going on since then that I was starting to wonder if I’d ever be okay again. Usually a new year brings some hope with it, but this…
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What up, 2019?
I had 11 days off over Christmas and New Year! I usually love taking that time to reflect, plan, and look ahead at the coming year. This time I did a tiny bit of that, but mostly I slept, watched telly, played video games, cooked food, and basically did as little as possible. I obviously…
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One year later
Content warning: suicide, cancer. This week is the year anniversary of my last hysteroscopy follow up, when we already knew the results weren’t positive so thankfully we were prepared and we made the decision for me to get a hysterectomy. I have my 1 year post-cancer follow up next week (a month early but that’s…
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Full steam ahead
I know some people don’t believe or like to be told ‘things happen for a reason’. I’m not one of those people. I firmly believe that everything does happen for a reason, and the choices we make lead us somewhere for some particular purpose. Whether the purpose is to learn not to make that choice…
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Hormonal
The hormones I’m taking to hopefully get rid of my cancer have a lot of side effects. Mostly I’m exhausted. All. The. Time. This isn’t new to me after fighting iron deficiency last year so I can cope. It makes my depression worse. I’ve had worst days so, again, I can cope. It makes me…