I find in incredibly difficult to be positive at times. It’s like a switch goes off and I am no longer able to function as normal. Sometimes I can see what triggers it and other times it will just hit me. Recently it feels like there is more of it – it’s happening more frequently. Some of it is just struggling with things that are going on and dealing with stress and a definite lack of happiness with some things in my life. I want to change things, but I can’t see a way out right now so I’m not sure how to proceed, which makes me spiral further.
Sometimes I can help myself to be positive. The most effective way I can do this is by putting my life into perspective in the world. I am blessed with so much.
- A husband who loves and supports me beyond measure
- A lovely home to live in
- Food to eat
- Money to buy necessities
- A whole host of comforts which are nice to have, but not must have
- A job
I am aware there are people in situations worse than mine all over the world. I’m lucky to have all the things I do. I sometimes try to tell myself it’s irrational to feel depressed, but I know that there is no rationale to depression. You can suffer from it no matter what your circumstances.
I’ve barely eaten the past two days, I don’t know if it’s from how I’m feeling – depression doesn’t normally affect my appetite in that way, I tend to comfort/emotional eat rather than lose my appetite.
July is going to be such a busy month, hopefully all the activities will keep my spirits up and I’m looking forward to everything I’m doing: Foo Fighters this weekend and London Film & Comic Con the following week, then Thorpe Park at the end of the month!