Last week was tough in a lot of ways. I’m sure the previous posts shows some of that. I assure you it’s not all doom and gloom, I had a brilliant weekend with one of my besties. 🙂

I really struggled to get back into the swing of things last week and now I feel the affects of that. I’m sluggish and tired and feel crap from not eating as well as I should. This morning the easy decision was made that this week would be back to it, balls-to-the-wall-get-on-with-it-no-more-feeling-sorry-for-myself full on ass kicking that I so desperately need. And no one else can do that but ME.

So I’ve been thinking a lot about motivation today. I rarely feel motivated, but I get to the gym and I eat well because I know my body will feel better for it. I think the lack of motivation to push myself harder is definitely what’s missing from my life right now. I need to push myself in so many different areas and get out of my comfort zone.

Life isn’t about being comfortable. It’s about LIVING. And right now I don’t feel like I’m living, or doing much of anything at all. I’m just floating around and letting opportunities and experiences pass me by without engaging myself.

Well, that stops now.

  • No more letting things/days/weeks/months/years slip by.

  • No more letting people have any control over how I feel about myself.

  • No more giving in to the safe, very inviting comfort of my self-doubt and depression.

I’m starting with exercise. Today I’m starting running again after 10 months “rest”. I’m back to the gym 5-6 times a week. Back to pushing myself and seeing what I can accomplish and surprising myself each time I can do more than I ever though possible.

Back to eating good, healthy foods I love. But this time I’m not going to get stuck in a rut, I’m going to keep it interesting and find new ways to prepare foods that will make it fun and delicious and incredibly good for my body.

I felt really good leaving work today, knowing that I would be heading to the gym and then doing a run tonight and had decided we will have grilled chicken & bacon salad for dinner tonight which I’m very much looking forward to.

Lyric of the day: “The rest of the ride is riding on you”  from Collect Call by Metric.

So what do you want to change and take control of?