Last week was tough in a lot of ways. I’m sure the previous posts shows some of that. I assure you it’s not all doom and gloom, I had a brilliant weekend with one of my besties. 🙂
I really struggled to get back into the swing of things last week and now I feel the affects of that. I’m sluggish and tired and feel crap from not eating as well as I should. This morning the easy decision was made that this week would be back to it, balls-to-the-wall-get-on-with-it-no-more-feeling-sorry-for-myself full on ass kicking that I so desperately need. And no one else can do that but ME.
So I’ve been thinking a lot about motivation today. I rarely feel motivated, but I get to the gym and I eat well because I know my body will feel better for it. I think the lack of motivation to push myself harder is definitely what’s missing from my life right now. I need to push myself in so many different areas and get out of my comfort zone.
Life isn’t about being comfortable. It’s about LIVING. And right now I don’t feel like I’m living, or doing much of anything at all. I’m just floating around and letting opportunities and experiences pass me by without engaging myself.
Well, that stops now.
No more letting things/days/weeks/months/years slip by.
No more letting people have any control over how I feel about myself.
No more giving in to the safe, very inviting comfort of my self-doubt and depression.
I’m starting with exercise. Today I’m starting running again after 10 months “rest”. I’m back to the gym 5-6 times a week. Back to pushing myself and seeing what I can accomplish and surprising myself each time I can do more than I ever though possible.
Back to eating good, healthy foods I love. But this time I’m not going to get stuck in a rut, I’m going to keep it interesting and find new ways to prepare foods that will make it fun and delicious and incredibly good for my body.
I felt really good leaving work today, knowing that I would be heading to the gym and then doing a run tonight and had decided we will have grilled chicken & bacon salad for dinner tonight which I’m very much looking forward to.
Lyric of the day: “The rest of the ride is riding on you” from Collect Call by Metric.
So what do you want to change and take control of?