Drugs

In February my doctor put me on Xenical (Orlistat). This is the same ingredient in Alli, but a stronger dose. They have helped, especially with what I eat due to the not so nice side effects if you eat foods with a lot of fat. 😉

I have not, however, lost as much as I should while taking them. I could list a lot of reasons for this, but to me most them sound like (and are) excuses and I’m done making excuses for my lack of progress. My doctor has kept me on them simply because I am moving in the right direction, which is more than I was before I was taking them so it’s progress in a way.

I have noticed little changes, though.

Last week I bought clothes, and the tops I bought all fit better than they would have done a few months ago.

Last night I did an old DVD that I rarely ever did all the segments of, but did it all. I pushed myself a bit, but found it easier this time around.

I know I am fitter, stronger and capable of so much more than I was.

Either way I feel like I just keep starting over. I made so much progress and then last year it all went away. So this year I’m starting over, again. There’s nothing wrong with starting over. But it does get tiring.

I’m back to tracking everything I can on SparkPeople (seriously, this is the BEST. SITE. EVER.). It does help me a great deal to know if I’m within the right ranges and I love watching the calories I burn accumulate. I just need to manage my time and do it (for longer than a week lol :)).

Today has been a good day food wise. Not so great anything else wise. I’m losing the will to live with work at the moment and hating that I have to see someone I was very close to while I’m there knowing we are not friends now. It makes me sad, even if it was me who made the decision. Losing a relationship, especially a close friendship, is difficult.

But hey-ho! I’ve done my run this evening, C25K W1D3. Glad to have Week 1 done with, but tonight it was a struggle. And now for a rest 🙂