What the hell is going on?
I love December. I love my birthday, Christmas, New Year’s, the lot.
Not this year.
I don’t know if it’s remnants of my holiday and missing everyone or what. We haven’t decorated yet and I suggested to my husband today that we not decorate. Or buy a tree. I FREAKIN’ LOVE CHRISTMAS TREES. I am also very much not wanting to go to my work’s Christmas party this Wednesday. If I’m still feeling how I am now (I have been fighting back tears all day today, I’m really not happy at all) I will not go.
My birthday is Saturday… I’m not quite looking forward to that either. Last year was shite and I’m worrying hubby won’t plan anything good and I’ll be upset AGAIN.
So yeah, not a good month so far.