Tuesday I go in for my second hysteroscopy this year and I will have been on Provera to treat my womb cancer for 7 weeks.
The last 7 weeks have gone by pretty quickly but dealing with the moodiness and feeling crap has gotten old! The depression isn’t as bad as I worried it would be (yet) but I am not sure how long it will stay that way. I keep feeling like the things I’m spending my time doing are just not important in the grand scheme of what I’m dealing with, you know?
I’m not going to complain too much but it’s no fun for sure and my mantra every day seems to be “I hate everyone”. (I said that often before all this, but I say it at least 10 times a day now!)
At any rate, I’m almost half way through the initial 4 months or so that I am on meds before we find out if I am then cancer-free. We aren’t expecting any real indications with this op, it’s just to make sure it’s doing what it should and that it’s worth continuing (I think).
I’m really thankful for the absolutely amazing ladies I have at work; they have been so supportive and we are fundraising every month and they help keep me sane without even knowing it!
And my truly incredible hubby… he’s putting up with all of my moods! I’m still pissed off he won’t let me go to London for a few hours after the op, though meaning I’ll miss Andrew MacMahon this tour.
Cancer sucks, but honestly since my main complaints are truly just inconveniences then I’m pretty lucky. A lot of people have worse news than me when they find out they have cancer.
So I’ll be doing a Pretty Muddy for Cancer Research with some ladies from work in July! Yep, I’m going to have to start running again and training after my recovery from the op.
I’m hoping I’ll still be able to do the Color Run in September, it’s going to be down to timing with my next op…
Oh boy!