And let the craze begin.

Oh hello! To say I’ve been preoccupied the last erm, 2 weeks? is a bit of an understatement. There is a lot going on in my head right now and a lot that I want to do and a lot that I’m frustrated about and well, just a lot of everything really.

Let’s begin where we left off shall we? Holiday! It was lovely to get away and to see Hubby’s fam. It was only a week but it was a week without work, in the sunshine and away from everything and served its purpose well. We came back refreshed and de-stressed only to have it go away in a day. That’s always the way and honestly, makes me wish things were different.

I should not be this stressed out all the time. I should be enjoying my life, not wishing it away. Anyway, I digress.

It took us a while to get back into the swing of things, but we are there now. I spent tonight cooking! I really enjoy it and often forget that, especially when I’m too tired to do much during the week and have been putting working out above everything else.

I made Turkey Potato Soup and Broccoli Cheese Pockets. I froze half of the pockets and have more filling in the fridge – I ran out of dough so will get some more tomorrow and make the rest. The soup came out better once I spiced it up a bit. I’ll be freezing most of it and that way I can have it either for lunch or when I don’t feel like cooking. I feel somewhat prepared for the week ahead now, food wise anyway.

My next big project is painting the kitchen. I’m hoping to do it maybe this weekend or next, now that we’ve finally picked a colour. I’d love to do so much more to the kitchen, but it won’t happen anytime soon. I’ll content myself with painting for now.

I have lots I’m looking forward to this year:-

  • Finally having our girls night with T & S in May. It’s going to be a blast.
  • Seeing John Mayer at the end of May then Brighton for a few days.
  • We are going to the London Film & Comic Con again this year. I can’t wait to meet Katee Sackhoff and WILLIAM SHATNER!! How cool is that?
  • I’ll be attending my first festival this year, V Festival. Although I totally wish I was going to Reading – the lineup  is AMAZING. *sob*
  • My friend is hopefully coming over to the UK sometime later this year and it would be awesome to have her here.
  • I also still have 2 weeks holiday left this year and I’m totally hoping to go away somewhere warm. But we’ll see what happens.

As for feeling stressed and frustrated… it’s become the norm lately. I’m increasingly frustrated with my weight, which will not budge for anything it seems. I can’t seem to get back into the groove and it’s definitely taking its toll on me. Now that I’ve spent tonight cooking I can worry a little less about food this week and focus on being active.

We went for a 4 mile walk yesterday, which was lovely. We were out for about 2 hours and it was nice to be outside doing something rather than just watching telly all day (although we did that after! :)). Hubby mentioned before we went on holiday he wanted to start walking more now that it will start to get nice out and I’m going to hold him to that as much as possible. I enjoy getting out and doing things so much more when he’s willing to join me, but I do wish he’d do a bit more. I’m 110% positive he wouldn’t be so stressed if he did. (Hey maybe I should take my own advice…)

I didn’t know what I was going to write when I started this, but it seems like a lot now. I’m pretty much avoiding the scale right now because I know what whatever I see will make me want to cry or scream or break the scale into a million tiny pieces. So I’m just not going to go there for now.

I need to work on feeling a bit better about myself and where I am. Exercise is a part of that. So is eating right and spending time with friends and family. Those are my goals for now. Everything else can wait for me for a bit.