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Routine Maintenance
Quarantine has messed with routines for everyone. I’ve fallen back into really old patterns of anxiety and insecurities after three months of not going out. My daily routine has changed from April to now as well, but my anxiety has sky rocketed lately with the need to go back out and do things. Early Days…
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Chica’s Log: Supplemental
The other day I posted a photo on Instagram of all the tablets I take and I wanted to take some time and write about them because I’ve found some of them damn near miraculous in how much they have helped me. View this post on Instagram A post shared by Tish Smith (@mrstcsmith) on…
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My own personal grief
Right before lockdown in the UK started I was looking into therapy. I was trying to find someone that could help me deal with navigating the circumstances of being unable to have children. You see, it was Mother’s Day here in the UK in March and I was bombarded constantly with reminders of what I…
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Pandemic Lessons: Self Approval
You have been criticising yourself for years, and it hasn’t worked. Try approving of yourself and see what happens. Louise L. Hay Yesterday I had confirmation that my furlough has been extended through June. This was of course right before the government announced they were extending the scheme four more months, through October. After July…
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Pandemic Lessons: Stop chasing
When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you. Lolly Daskal Have you ever kept going with something even after it stopped serving your needs? Sometimes it’s difficult to see when you should move on or stop chasing the wrong thing, especially when you still hold that…
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1109 Days
It’s weird to be writing about cancer with everything else going on right now however, that’s my life right now. It’s always there, even when we are in the midst of a pandemic and life is the least normal it’s probably ever been. It’s been 1109 days since I found out I had cancer. It’s…
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One of the bad weeks (plus a cancer update!)
I’ve just realised I have a draft from a couple months ago that I still haven’t finished or posted which I obviously forgot about! Oh well. You get this one instead. This week has been utter shite. 90% of that is down to hormones because ovaries suck – I still have my cycles I just…
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The importance of speaking up for yourself
Today I had my 18 month post-hysterectomy cancer check up! Everything is all okay and I’m doing great. I have noticed in recent weeks a few things that with my appointment coming today I decided to ask about. I realised I’d stopped having any PMS symptoms, which was the only way I could track my…
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The light at the end of the tunnel
It hasn’t been a great year so far and truth be told I haven’t really been myself since August. There’s been way too much stress and feeling hopeless going on since then that I was starting to wonder if I’d ever be okay again. Usually a new year brings some hope with it, but this…